- 8.
Hazel had a miscarriage.
That day, like always, she brought Leo to my
room and told him to say bad things about
- me.
Maybe my friend had influenced him, and he
didn’t want to say anything.
He bit Hazel’s hand.
Hazel got mad and pushed him to the ground
and kicked him.
I protected Leo and pushed her over.
But she had a miscarriage.
Ryan blamed everything on me.
He made Leo stay in his room for three days.
He had the butler bring Leo two meals a day
so he could pay for what happened to Hazel’s
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baby.
I knew that he was punishing me.
He knew that I wouldn’t show any emotion,
but that I would care about what happened to
my son.
Leo lost weight.
Ryan said, “Blame your mom. Or whoever
carried you in their stomach, anyway.”
“Stay away from her. Don’t learn anything
from her.”
Leo had changed.
He was ignoring me like Ryan wanted.
But before, he had started talking to me.
He cared if I had eaten and told me to stay
warm in bed.
He wasn’t a bad kid.
My friend said that my depression had gotten
worse.
She took me out of Ryan’s house.
She quit her job overseas for me.
She put everything aside to take me
travelling.
On the Tibetan grassland, 13,000 feet up, she
took off my oxygen.
I wanted to breathe.
She smiled at me. “See? Life is good?”
“You’re not afraid to die, why are you afraid
to live?”
She kept telling me that if I lived, there was
always hope.
I put on the oxygen and laid with her under
the sky.
She smiled “Life is good”
I looked at her and cried.
Life is good
She took me to places I had never been.
I loved the different cultures.
When I came back, I felt better.
Anya had answers for me
Ryan sont me to mental health be told the
doctors to take care of me.
Ryan loved me, and didn’t want to hurt me.
Hazel gave the mental health leader money to
let the people abuse me.
She said she would handle it, and let the
leader to do it.
Anya laughed at me
“So he does love you.”
I laughed back.
“I dont want him to do that to me, I can’t
allow it or i can’t forgive him”
“I can’t forgive him for anything.”
Anya smiled at me.
“That’s my girl!”
“I’m here for you!”
