Still Hurt
Serafine POV
Xander leaves me alone, which I need. The bond is strained, and my wolf is torn. The bond part wants to forgive Xander and pull him closer, while the rational part says to keep our distance.
Which I am. Distance right now is the key to this. I can’t let Xander close again. My body is still tired and exhausted and begging for a break right now.
A knock has me freeze, and I don’t breathe or move.
“Miss Serafine, breakfast is outside the door for you. Someone will bring lunch here as well.”
“Thank you,” I call out and wait. When I hear the footsteps disappear, I rush to the door and open it. Grabbing the plate, I sit and eat, my mind, though, keeps going back to the book.
When I wrote in it, the words disappeared, and the book replied. It was like a person was in the book, reading what I wrote and replying. I eat, though, only because I know I need the energy, the food, to replenish what I lost.
It’s obvious that the aggressiveness of the serum they injected me with has destroyed my body and burned through every bit of resource it has.
The food goes quickly, but it barely feels like enough. Tiredness still clings to me and drags my body down, making me tired.
Okay, I need to get the book. I reach out and grab it. Picking up a pen, I flick to the last page. Placing the pen against the paper, I write.
Hello.
* That’s it, because what if I was seeing things, what if it’s not what I think?
Hello, Veyrathi
The words pulse on the paper before disappearing. I’m so confused right now that, placing the pen against the paper, I write again.
How are you replying or reading my words?
I watch as the words appear.
I’m not an entity, I’m not a person. I’m a part of you. You may communicate with animals, and you may be able to sense truth under people’s lies. Part of you is an extension, and this book is one of them, giving you the ability to talk to parts of your Veyrathi that are hidden.
Hidden parts of me? That’s what it says. It still makes no sense to me, though. Why? What is the purpose of this book? To teach me what is written inside, sure, but the other part? Why?
Placing the pen against the paper, I write again.
What purpose do I have, or what need do I have to write in this book? Is everything I need to know in it?
That’s where I’m confused right now. What is the purpose of it? Words begin to appear, and I start to read.
The more you write in this book, the more you build your bonds through the threadborn. This makes your connections grow stronger, but also helps protect your mind and clear it from any spells or attempts to read your mind.
Well, that makes a lot more sense. Keeping my mind safe is super important, considering how much I don’t trust Xander anymore. More words begin to appear.
The book holds a piece of every Threadborn before you. It learns who you are as you write. The book may also sense when you’re at risk or being attacked by dark magic.
Writing in the book is required by all Threadborns for your safety. Threadborns may encounter a lot more emotional stress and magic strain. The book also helps keep your mind in a good place and sane.
Question everything that happens, and ask about it in this book. If you feel something, question it. Don’t ignore things. If your mind feels clouded or exhausted, write, remove the weight.
Those words have me worried. It sounds like there’s going to be weight placed on me. Still, I need answers.
Are you able to explain to me what the purpose was of what I was injected with, and why it hurt so much?
That’s something I do need to know. I watch a Successfully unlocked!
The serum you were injected with is an old torture menou which usually mutes a wolf for anything from six to thirty–six hours. For Threadborn, it’s deadly; it severs the bond entirely, and if a mate isn’t there to help, it will kill both the wolf and
the host.
So I would have died if I had rejected Xander’s help; I would be dead right now.
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Still Hurt
Your wolf will be weaker. You will need to rebuild your connection with it. To do that, you need to be with your mate. Knotting is essential to rebuilding your wolf’s strength.
No, that I can’t do. Letting Xander touch me after everything, no. I’m not happy with that at all. While I’m thinking about it, I can feel it. The weakness, my wolf isn’t as forward as before. She’s back, hiding almost like she’s too exhausted to be up front and give me her energy and power.
Which is a risk, if I’m hurt, if I’m attacked, I need her, but giving in to Xander and letting him touch me? That’s hard.
A knock has me look up, I quickly close the book and place it away.
“Yes?” I call out.
“Hi, I’m Alexa, one of the Omega’s, I wanted to introduce myself.”
I don’t want to open the door, but I have to. Standing, I walk over, unlock the door, and open it,
“Hi!” She smiles and hugs me, but I stand still, unsure of what to say or do. “We can talk here, or go for a walk? Maybe grab a coffee?” She smiles softly at me.
I’m not sure I want to leave my room, but bringing her in feels like a risk as well. I’m not sure if she’s here because she’s been friendly or because she wants to find out things for Xander.
“Let’s go somewhere else,” I whisper.
Smiling, she nods and leads me out of the room and out of the pack house. I’ve no idea where I’m going, but as long as it’s near Xander, I’m happy.
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