The entire night, I kept on twisting and turning, my mind plagued with Prince Samuel and Prince Cameron’s thoughts. They consumed every part of my brain, and when I was asleep, I dreamt of them. Something was seriously wrong with me. The weird feeling of wanting to be near them and take in their scent drove me crazy. Never has any male wolf consumed my thoughts as they did, not even Jax, and that was big thing. Since I’ve been crushing on Jax for goddess knows how long and all I could think about was him, but meeting the prince for hardly an hour I have thought more of them then anyone. I chalked my newfound obsession off to instincts and female harmones attraction to power. She–wolves were attracted to men of power and them being at the top. so it was natural for me to want them like every other she–wolf around. However, the thought of other she–wolves lusting over the twins sent an uneasy feeling into my body. I was not too fond of the thought of other she–wolves looking at them and trying to gain their attention. Which, again, was stupid because I had no relation to them. They weren’t mine and could never be, they had a mate out there, and I had my mate waiting for me back at his pack. This had to stop. I felt like I was betraying Jax. It hadn’t even been twenty–four hours, and here I was fantasizing about two different male wolves. To top it up, I had. warrior class next for the remainder of the day, so I’d be stuck with them for five hours, which I was sure would not help my case.
Chapter 21
“Earth to Lyla.” I heard Alana say, breaking me out of my thoughts.
“Huh? Sorry, what.” I said, embarrassed that I, completely zoned out on her and that too, about her brothers.
“Where are you lost, L? Not thinking about someone special, are we?” Alana said teasingly, waggling her eyebrows.
If only she knew that I was lost in her brother’s thoughts. It would be Sayonara for our friendship. That was another thing that worried me. Alana had mentioned how she had been hurt by countless she–wolves claiming to be her friends just to get to the twins. I did want her to think I was one of them because I genuinely wasn’t interested in her brothers, that I needed to keep reminding myself. My inner self mocked me for claiming that, but I pushed the feeling aside. I can’t! More like couldn’t be interested in the twins, yeah, infatuated, but nothing more. It was probably a phase since it was the first time I met. them. Hopefully, it would fade the more I saw them.
“Nothing like that. I’m just exhausted! Those three classes pooped me out, man. Who knew Lycan and wolf history was so tough here?” I replied.
Alana grimaced and nodded.
“I know, and I thought what I was taught back at the palace was hard. Here, it’s the next level.” She said.
“Anyway, are you excited about warrior training? Maxwell is basically known for that, and with my brother’s teaching this year, it will be great. They’re amazing on the battlefield, but it’s funny because they’re softies at heart,” Said Alana.
I just nodded.
Another thing, since the morning. Alana had been praising her brothers in front of me every chance she got. She even asked if they offended me last night, since I seemed mad. It was as if she was making excuses for them. Which was weird.
Why did she care what I thought of the princes?
She even said that I should definitely ask them if I needed anything. Even though I wanted to refuse politely, she seemed adamant I had no other choice but to agree. She even went as far as making me promise, and I had to relent and promise her. It may not be a big thing for anyone else, but for me, promises meant a lot, and I never broke them. Now, I just hoped that I would never come into a situation where I needed Prince Samual and Prince Cameron’s help.
“Yeah, that’s the only class I’m looking forward to. I even want to try. getting a spot in the royal army.” I said, my body shaking with. excitement at the thought of being among the few females chosen in the royal army.
That was another thing no one knew about me after what happened to mom and daddy all those years ago. I promised to make myself worthy and strong enough to ensure no other pup went through what I did. I wanted to leave my mark and knew I could only achieve that in the royal army. Since my brothers and Jax thought there wasn’t a need for me to take such a rugged path, I was never given an opportunity, but this was my chance now. I just had to figure out how to achieve it in a month and if so, how to convince Jax and my brothers about the logistics and all that.
“You want to be a fighter? Why?” I heard Alana ask.
She seemed a bit nervous.
I nodded. Confused about her reaction.
“Why, though? As far as I know, there are only a total of ten female. fighters in the army. Why would you want such a brutal and hard lifestyle?” asked Alana, seeming truly confused.
I sighed, looking
away.
Sniffing back the tears as I remembered what happened all those years ago–seeing my sudden change of mood and glistened eyes. Alana held my hands and squeezed them, which had me looking at her. Instead of confusion, I saw love and concern. The same love I had hoped to see in my brothers all those years but was never there until it was too late, and I had closed myself off from everything and everyone.
“Hey! You know you can tell me anything! I would never judge or tell anyone.” Said Alana.
I have never opened up to anyone regarding this matter. My brothers were busy at the time, and over time I learned to bury it, but it was getting overbearing now, I was at the hilt. The emotions were getting too much to handle. Plus, for some reason, even though I had only met Alana yesterday, I felt like I could share anything with her like I could trust her. And I did! I told her everything from what happened on my birthday, how my brothers were busy doing damage control that they unintentionally forgot about me, how some pack members shunned me, how my engagement with Jax came to be, the fights over the years and how I ended up at Maxwell. When I was done, you could see the sadness in her eyes, her eyes moist with tears, but she didn’t let them fall. I looked away, embarrassed.
