Lewana POV
I’m currently in my room with a full soldier detail roaming the hallways. Honestly don’t mind it currently as I’m just thinking about the last few days. How the Fae dinner went, the fact that Alpha Leroy voted for me, Alpha Marcus being banished. Even Alpha Heir Kane asking if I was really Luna Queen.
No matter how much I focused on all these questions my mind kept going back to how intense this morning was. I have never felt like that before. Never wanted someone to touch and hold me so desperately. I’m so stuck in my thoughts I
don’t hear the door open.
“Well someone is brooding“, Willow jokes.
Michelle comes running over excitedly. “Normally means you’re thinking about something or hiding gossip from me. What
is it“.
“Nothing. And everything. Been a busy few days. What movie did you bring“.
Michelle grabs it and throws it out the door. Then slams it shut. “We didn’t bring a movie so now you have to tell us everything“.
I roll my eyes at her. She is always such a busybody. Supposed she would be the best person to talk to about what I can’t stop thinking about though.
We talk about the Fae dinner, Alpha Leroy, and how I feel about the whole Alpha Marcus situation.
As we are starting dessert Kimberly breaks out in a sly grin. “So. Did anyone else realize how she hasn’t spoken about Conrad once or changed the topic when he comes up“.
I start to blush and look down at my plate, willing the comment not to be heard while trying to act as if nothing is up.
“It’s going OK. Just have to focus on this ceremony and all the other dramas that keep coming up“.
Michelle starts giggling again. “Your deflecting means you’re hiding something. Spill“.
“Nothing happened. It’s all going fine. What have you guys been up to“.
“Now you’re minimizing and trying to redirect“.
It suddenly dawns on me that I recognize the use the language she is using. “You’ve been talking to Liam about integration techniques. Haven’t you“.
“Yep. Helps with business negotiations for my fashion line. Also with getting information from you“.
I freeze. I know her well enough to know she isn’t going to drop it and I’m desperate enough to ask her what to do.
“My scent changed“.
She looks at me confused. “OK. Why did that happen”.
“I saw him in the shower“.
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She started to look annoyed at me for being coy about this. “You’re going to have to connect the dots for me“.
“When wolves get… excited …. we release pheromones which change our scent“.
It takes her a second before she smiles. “So you saw Conrad in all his naked glory, got horny and he noticed. Failing to see what the issue is“.
I go bright red. “He wasn’t exactly showering. He was ….. thinking about me“.
“You walked in him jerking off“. She is still confused as to what the issue is.
I hear Kimberly gasp. “That was the first time you saw him naked wasn’t it. And the first time your scent changed“.
I just stay silent as the penny drops for all three of them.
I start to panic and just start blurting things out. “I know and it is so stupid. It just happened and I couldn’t stop it. Later he started triggering it on purpose which made it worse and we ended up back in my room and it felt so good. But now I can’t stop thinking about….it“.
I bury my head in a pillow to hide from the world as Kimberly comes over to comfort me while Michelle laughs at my
embarrassment.
“Firstly, we need to know what we are dealing with. How big was it“.
I start looking around for an object the same size and eventually get one of my blades.
Kimberly gasps. “Well that is very impressive. You seemed scared though“.
“I haven’t done anything to him. Only him doing stuff to me. He got so excited when my scent changed. Now I keep thinking about things to do for him but…. I just. I don’t know what I am meant to do. Whatever it is, I’m going to be awful at it as he has probably had it done a thousand times with hundreds of she–wolves“.
Michelle rolled her eyes. “Oh for fuck sake woman. You have been with him for a month and he is clearly going at your pace. He knows you don’t know what to do so he will guide you. I can show you a bunch of porn if you want to get some
ideas“.
Kimberly is horrified. “You will do no such thing. Whatever you’re watching are not beginner videos. But she is right about him guiding you thing. He’ll honestly be happy with anything you do and you will be able to tell if he likes it“.
I just pause thinking about the rest of that morning.
Willows looks at me curiously. “There’s something else. Isn’t there“.
“Does
does it. Is it meant to hurt“.
Kimberly just hugs me. “With the right person. No“.
“He said something about needing to get me ready. That means it might hurt. Like it hurt before. Please tell me truthfully as I don’t see how ….. something that size ….. isn’t going to hurt”.
Michelle mutters under her breath, “I’m gonna smack that dumbass“.
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Kimberly shot her a glare to shut up. “It won’t. I promise you. And Conrad is the type of man who will stop if you ask“,
1 lay in Kimberly’s lap while the girls talked about all the other things that were going on in their lives. We eventually got the movie from outside and put it on. At least it was a comedy. We decide to spend the night in my room and all pass out
about midnight.
