- 21.
“Holly, I’m sorry to talk to you this way, but
Holly, I really don’t know what else to do.
I’m such a fool, you’ve been gone for four
years, and I thought you were still alive.
I’m so dull, only now do I know that Xu Mei
easily deceived me with a few photoshopped
pictures.
I didn’t know she secretly sent you those
pictures and messages.
Holly, I swear, I never touched her, it’s always
been you.
You were never a replacement for anyone,
not her replacement, you are you.
Remember you asked me why I chose you,
when I fell for you? I’ll tell you now.
It was at that gathering, you protected others
even when you were in danger, you were so
stupid and cute, so I fell for you.
Holly, I saw your secondary account on your
phone. It was a record of our time together.
Our first date, our first kiss, our first…
Holly, Grandma was right, you’re a kind and
thoughtful girl, I let you down.
I saw your last message on social media,
‘Shane, if I really die, will you die with me?‘
Now I can tell you, I will.
Holly, wait for me, okay?”
That secondary account was indeed my diary;
everything was set to private.
Only a few hundred words, but I read it for a
long time.
When I reacted, I heard Shane stepping on
the gas.
The Maybach was facing the sea; with his
foot on the gas, I knew what he was going to
- do.
“Shane, are you crazy? I don’t want you to die
with me!”
“Stay alive, stay alive, hear me?”
But he couldn’t hear me.
The car sped towards the sea.
My memories surged; I felt like I was back on
the day I fell into the sea.
Countless waves crashed over me, burning
my nose, throat, and lungs.
Death isn’t scary, the process is.
