Chapter 111
Arthur POV
I’m not surprised Lewana either found out or worked out about Mary and me. She’s always been intuitive. I still felt guilty for it though. I’m Lewana’s Beta. She always comes first. My life should be dedicated to her. But Mary gave me something I hadn’t had in years. Personal connection.
I think back to my mate and my life before her death. I liked her and she liked me but I don’t know if I would call it love. More survival. We had grown up together as pups and we were both pure Beta’s. As I was Blake’s Beta it made sense for us to have the next generation. The Beta to support the Alpha heir. That way they could grow up together.
When my mate and the Luna got pregnant at the same time it seemed to be the Moon Goddess blessing shining down on us. Until Blake took her to a clinic and found out he was having a girl. While he demanded termination we continued as whatever the pup was would be a valuable asset to the pack regardless of gender.
It didn’t matter as I lost them both when my mate bled out. When I held my sleeping daughter I was devastated. I didn’t know how I could go on living without them. Blake told me it was a blessing as we were both meant to have sons. The night after they died, Blake killed his Luna and I met Lewana and I rejected him to protect her.
Any feeling I had towards Mary felt strange at first. I was confused as I wasn’t sure if I was betraying Lewana and my first
mate. But it is hard not to be drawn in by her natural warmth.
I didn’t intend for anything to start. Mary just started talking to me about Conrad and Lewana’s relationship. It progressed to exchanging funny stories about both of them growing up. An Liam of course. I started helping clean the kitchen at night, and then helping her carry things back to her house. More recently we have been watching TV at her place late into the evening.
Once everyone has left the kitchen and we have cleaned up, we continue with the ritual of me carrying things back to her
house.
For once it is silence and it’s making me nervous. “I’m sorry Lewana outed us. I swear things supernaturally sometimes because of her blessing“.
“It’s OK. Just more awkward for the boys“. We continue in silence till we reach her house and she does what she always does.
She goes over to the corner cabinet in the corner of her living room and opens the main middle compartment. Inside is her altar for the Moon Goddess. A cloth hanging at the back with the phases of the moon on it. Moonstones and candles surround the pictures. In the middle, is a silver plate with food offerings of apples, honey, and her famous cookies. She places a new one every night as she gives a blessing.
“Continue to guide us Moon Goddess through this life and bless all that you protect“.
I know she is our deity but I’m honestly furious at her. I don’t consider what she has done the Lewana as a blessing. All of her suffering is from that curse. Why did she have to give it to Lewana and not protect her from harm because of it? She should have given it to some noble wolf.
Mary looks at me with her big doe eyes and knows what I’m thinking. She always knows. “What do you want to watch tonight“.
“Don’t care. You know the best shows“.
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“You’re being distant again and getting stuck in your head. Anything you want to talk about“.
How the hell does she always know? “Nothing special. Just all the usual stuff“.
We sit in silence while watching the show she picks. I honestly have no idea what is going on and I’m barely watching it. She just laughs along.
“What’s going on here“. I turn and look at her, not sure what I am asking.
“Oh. It’s just some comedy show from a while ago on rerun. I find it easy to watch after stressful days“.
I move closer to her so my arm is around her shoulder and I’m sitting right next to her. I look at her this time. “No. I mean, what’s going on here“. I gesture between us with my hand and her eyes go wide.
I know Lewana sang that children’s kissing song but we have only kissed once and I apologize afterwards. My wolf could sense her wolf and he got carried away with her amazing smell of those dam cookies. She didn’t push me away but she was as surprised as I was.
She turns the TV off and turns to me. “I honestly don’t know Arthur. I was worried what my boys would think, and Lewana but they seemed OK with it. Liam is dramatic but it is his personality. I know we both have a bad history but I do find comfort in having you here which is strange for both of us. My wolf likes you but I know I’m just an Omega and you’re a Beta…..”
I pull her face towards mine. She is so amazing in so many ways I won’t let her think of herself as ‘just an omega‘ when she is so much more than that in so many ways. I kiss her and she instantly melts against me kissing me back.
“Don’t think of yourself as just anything. You have proven yourself to this world more than once, and if you were to consider me at some point to be your mate, I would be lucky for the first time in my life“.
She throws her arms around me and starts kissing me passionately. I haven’t kissed like this in over 25 years. I have to fight every urge in my body not to pull her onto my lap or lie her down on the sofa.
We eventually stopped and she just held her head against mine.
“I don’t know where this is going but I know I want to find out. I just hope you can accept every part of me and
understand the secrets I have to keep“.
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