Chapter 118
Chapter 118
Serafine POV
It’s good, spending time with Helena, she’s the only person I have that I can speak to. I realised when I ran that I had never had that. Someone I could talk to, someone whom I could get advice from.
I’ve always just had to keep everything to myself, my worries, my issues, any fears I had. There was never anyone there who offered me support and advice. I was simply expected to deal with things.
She sits holding Eryx, singing to him slowly. She’s like the grandmother I never had and always wished for. The person who offered me something deep and meaningful outside of the silent walls of my ordinary life.
“How do you feel about things now?” she asks.
“I realise my mistakes,” I say quietly. “I came into this pack telling myself not to show my feelings, not to show how hurt I could be by Gideon selling tre. All that led to the worst things possible. It made me appear to be a liar.”
She smiles softly. “Sometimes pretending to be strong and acting like nothing can touch us is a weakness. It doesn’t show who we truly are or what we’ve been through, and that then makes people think you’re strong and didn’t face hardship.”
Which is what Xander saw. “I realised that, I realised Xander saw me as something strong, defiant, the exact woman Gideon had described, the exact woman Xander had heard I was.”
“Sometimes, Serafine. Relationships don’t start well, they start badly, they get destroyed a piece at a time, over and over. It’s not always bad, though. The fact that you were able to come back from that darkness and rebuild means nothing can tear you apart going forward.”
I get that, with how bad things were with me and Xander, the fact that I’m learning to forgive him says a lot. It tells me that we can get through all of this, everything. We’ve faced a lot of bad, but now Xander is fighting for me.
He’s protecting me. Had that been months ago, he wouldn’t have cared that people wanted me dead.
“You have a lot to work on, to work out. Your magic, Eryx’s as well. Forget the past, let go of how Xander was, and focus on yourself and your son. That’s the only thing that matters going forward.”
She reaches over and squeezes my hand.
“Thank you, Helena, I never got to say it. For everything, giving me a place to stay, helping me learn about myself.” I sigh and rub my face. “Helping with my pregnancy, Eryx, and for trying to protect me against Gideon despite it putting you at risk.”
Smiling, she nods. “It’s rare I meet someone with a pure heart. Someone who takes abuse from everyone but still loves and trusts back. Mostly though, you don’t let it defy you, you still meet new people and don’t hesitate.”
I nod because she’s not wrong, I do. I don’t hold back, hide or shield myself when it comes to new people. I don’t run from them because of the past.
The door opens, and Xander steps in. “You need to begin getting ready. If we’re going to make Nyvarras Hollow in two days, we need to leave tonight.”
Tonight? “That quick?” Task.
“We need to, this isn’t something we can take slowly. We need to start traveling tonight, then tomorrow we will be going through rogue territory during light, we don’t want to go during the night.”
“I thought you and the rogues got along together?” Surely he is safe to go through rogue territory without issues?
“I’ve worked with them, but this isn’t the same. You can’t just go through rogue territory, they don’t take well to that, not if it’s packs, randoms, and such fine, but not people part of a pack.”
“So what do I need to do?” I ask.
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Pack some items, enough for a five–day journey. I’ll have the maids pack some items for Eryx, but I’m guessing you want to decide for yourself what to pack.”
I nod and stand.
“Are you okay keeping Eryx?” I ask, looking at Helena,
“Of course,” she smiles. “You don’t even need to ask.”
I relax and walk through to our room. A few minutes later, Xander enters as well.
“I’m not comfortable leaving her alone with Eryx, so I left Killian in the room,” he says.
“Helena is safe and trusted,” I say as I fold some clothes.
“I know that you trust her and she does appear to be safe and trusted, but I need to be sure, and the only way I can be sure she’s safe is time.”
That’s understandable. I would be the same; the only reason I trust the maids that Xander has left Eryx with is because I know they have been here for ages, and most have looked after children within the pack.
He steps up behind me, his mouth kissing down my neck before nipping at it. His hand slips into the drawer, and he pulls out a lingerie set. “We’re going to stay at a pack close by at night, pack this.”
Smiling, I look up at him. “And what exactly is your plan for me while I’m wearing this?” I ask.
“You will see, but I’m disappointed that we always end up fucking outside, or when you’re in clothes and such. I want to be able to admire your body, and this is the perfect outfit, little wolf.”
I lean back into him. “Then I guess I’ll pack it.”
His hands squeeze my hips, and he groans. “Good, now finish packing, I’m going to leave before we get distracted and lose more time.” He steps back and walks out of the room. Sighing, I place the lingerie into the bag and pack a few more items.
Once it’s done, I grab the bag and open the door. Garrick is standing there with his hand out. “Hand it here, I’ll get it in the car.”
Sighing, I pass it over to him, but then stop him. “I need the journals.” I open the bag and pull them out before fastening it again.
The drive is the perfect opportunity to read and ask more questions. Hopefully, to get answers to some of the unanswered questions I have as well.
AD
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