Her Pain
Xander
I can’t leave her alone, not when I caused this. I didn’t mean to, but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt me to hear her screaming. She refuses to unblock the door, and while it would be easy to use my wolf to push it open, I won’t. Pushing it open is fine, but I have no idea if she is sitting there and will get hurt. So, instead, I move and walk through the building. She’s on the ground floor, so I can easily get into her room.
As I step outside, people are staring at me, her screams can be heard out here, and i know her window is open. If it isn’t…A chill runs through me at the thought of how bad this is for her.
Getting around the pack house, I see her bedroom window open. Rushing, I climb into it. I look around the room for her, and see her on the floor,
She’s curled up in front of the door, which is blocked by a chair and dresser. Leaning down, I lift her into my arms. She’s too far gone into the pain to notice. Her body shakes, and sweat rolls off her.
Her scream is so loud, and I pull her closer. I don’t know what to do, I don’t know if there’s something that can counteract the serum. I’ve no idea if this is temporary or permanent, and pushing her to her death.
My own wolf is attacking me now. I don’t blame him or try to control him. I simply pull Serafine closer to me and hold her in my arms. Her wolf feels so far away, which has me panicking. He’s clawing to get closer to her.
“Serafine,” I whisper, and stroke her face. Her eyes aren’t even open now, her body continues to quake, which I’m guessing is from the pain. She screams again, and I pull her closer.
Why is her wolf so weak? It shouldn’t become weaker.
A tap has me look up, and I see the Hollowfang Raven sitting at the window. I don’t have answers for that right now. Why is it here? Why did it come to her rescue? It’s so unusual and I’ve no idea what is happening.
Right now, it’s like it’s watching me, observing me to ensure I don’t hurt her again. I don’t have time to focus on it. I need to figure out a way to pull her wolf back. It’s slipping further away, and that’s driving my wolf mad.
Closing my eyes, I focus on my wolf, trying to feel what he feels. The longer I push forward to get more answers, the deeper I get dragged in. I can feel it, the way the bond between Serafine and her wolf is fading, the way it’s breaking apart. That’s what the pain is, the bond isn’t just silencing for a short while, it’s burning, and severing.
The serum shouldn’t do that! I push my wolf forward, trying to get her wolf to connect with it. Pushing ourselves this close is causing me pain, but I force myself through it. It’s nothing compared to her pain.
When her wolf finally connects with mine, she whimpers, and I hold her closer. It takes all our strength to keep that mental hold on her wolf. Not just to hold it, but to pull it back, closer to us and Serafine.
The closer we pull it, the quieter Serafine’s screams and cries become. She’s still not conscious, her body is shaking, and she’s still dripping with sweat.
What did I do? I’m banning it. The serum was used as a punishment here long before I became the Alpha, but now? I’m not risking this again. I won’t; I’m going to destroy every single part of it.
I keep her close to me, while my wolf stays connected to hers to ensure it doesn’t disappear entirely.
I’m unsure of how long has passed before a knock comes from the door.
“Alpha, would you like lunch?”
Are they joking? “No!” I don’t deserve it. The fact that I did this means I deserve the same punishment as her. All I can think is that the one she was injected with was wrong. It wasn’t right, and someone switched it.
Does someone want to hurt Serafine in this pack? The thought has my wolf growling and clinging to her more.
What if I’m right, though? What if someone did do this to her? Did they know the punishment was coming and switch the serum? I’ll find out, and when I do, I will make them pay. Unfortunately, no one will punish me for this. My wolf, maybe, but even him clawing at my insides doesn’t seem like a worthy punishment for what I’ve caused.
I look down at her, and her hands finally unfist. I notice the deep cuts from her nails. No, that’s from her wolf. At some point, her hands turned into paws, and her nails went through them.
Standing, I keep her against me and shove the things out of the way of the door. Opening it, I decide to call out.
“Someone bring me the first aid kit. Leave it outside the door; do not come in!” I shout out and close the door. I don’t want anyone to see her like this, and no one is allowed to.
I stand waiting, well…pace while keeping her against me. A short while later, there’s a quiet knock, and I wait for the sound of their footsteps to disappear. Once they have, I open the door and grab the first aid kit.
Closing the door, I sit down and begin to clean her hands, wiping away any of the blood, then covering the cuts.
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Her Pain
She should be fully healed in a day or two. There’s no point in trying to stitch her hands when her wolf will hopefully heal her..
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